Saturday, November 23, 2013

Restoring the Splendor

Way back in January, I went to my Bible because I was worn out physically, emotionally, and spiritually.  I had suffered an early miscarriage two months earlier.  I was still deeply grieving Jacob, and the Holidays had been really rocky for me.  Restoration was the word that came to mind. That's what I felt like I needed.  I flipped to the back of my Bible to see all the times the word restore was used throughout the Bible.  It only showed a portion of each verse, but one in particular caught my eye, Nahum 2:2.  The portion I could see read, "The Lord will restore the splendor....."

When I flipped to the actual verse to read the rest, it said....."of Jacob"

The Lord will restore the splendor of  Jacob

It took my breath away, and in my heart I knew exactly what it meant. I knew the only thing that could restore the splendor of Jacob was another child.  I felt like it was a promise.  I wrote the verse on a notecard, kept it in on my dresser, and read it every single day. 

I know I haven't ever talked specifically about our plans to try for another baby.  I've never been opposed to blogging about it, but I only blog when I'm really in the mood.  It just turns out when I've been in the mood I've had other things on my mind to write about.

After the miscarriage in October, we decided to wait a few months, get through the Holidays and consider trying again in February.  Well, when that time rolled around I knew I still wasn't ready  physically or emotionally.  Through the Spring, I began to feel like I was getting there, but then Zack had a minor health issue that postponed things.  We decided to just wait until after Jacob's birthday in June.  We felt like we would both be in a better position and have more peace about the whole process after that.

Well, if you read my last post, you know June was flippin' crazy!  When the window of...ahem...opportunity approached at the end of June, things were so stressful we both wondered if we should wait just one more month.  I spent several days praying about it and realized I wasn't getting a "No" from God.  Up until then, I always had either because of our physical circumstances or because of an uneasiness in my spirit.  I realized it was fear and fear alone that was now keeping me from taking that step.  It took these few sentences out of my devotional to realize that.  It's written in regards to Peter getting out of the boat and walking on the water to Jesus ---

Once he had stepped out of the boat, the waves were none of his business.  His only concern should have been the path of light shining across the darkness from Christ himself.  When the Lord calls you to come across the water, step out with confidence and joy.  And never glance away from Him for even a moment. You will not prevail by measuring the waves or grow strong by gauging the wind.  Attempting to survey the danger may actually cause you to fall before it.  Pausing at the difficulties will result in the waves breaking over your head.

"Lift up your eyes to the hills and go forward" Ps 12:1

There is no other way

And so we prayed for another precious child and we stepped.

 And the Lord said..........

He rocked our world with two beautiful little blessings! I am now 23.5 weeks along with two more sweet boys.  I'm thrilled to introduce my laid back little guy, Baby A

And my rowdy little Baby B 

Both boys are weighing in at 1lb 4oz, and all three of us are doing very well so far.  Please pray with us and PRAISE with us!  The One who promised is faithful!  :)
He has sent me to bind up the proclaim the year of the Lord's comfort all who mourn and provide for those who grieve in Zion, to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair.  They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the Lord for the display of his splendor. They will restore the ancient ruins and restore the places long devastated......And so you will inherit a double portion in your land, and everlasting joys will be yours. (Isaiah 61)